My Story
My relationship history includes a combination of long-ish term commitments, short term flings, and a dash of polyamory.
Mostly though, I spent much of my twenties and thirties single and thriving — I was genuinely happier on my own and honestly didn't believe I could find a man who could meet me in all the ways I was discovering (through trial and error) that I needed to be met. Relationships for me had mostly felt like they were full of self-abandonment and mediocre compromises.
What I didn't realize until recently was that I'd been stuck in people-pleaser mode most of my life. It felt safer to be alone than to be constantly trying to please and earn love from a man. It felt better to be alone than to be unknowingly abandoning my own needs because I hadn’t learned to recognize them. It felt easier to be alone than to show up in ways that didn't feel authentic to me. Even though I didn’t fully understand what I wanted to be striving for in a relationship, I knew on some deep level that being in a role where I was not prioritizing pleasing and loving myself didn’t make sense. I was generally committed to being on my own because I wasn't willing to settle for anything less than what I truly wanted—even though I had no idea what that actually was, I just knew what it wasn’t.
Then I met Chris.
Suddenly I was introduced to a man who had also been searching for more, for a deep soul connection that he believed could exist but hadn't been able to find. I met a man who wanted to know, love, and celebrate all of me, and I realized I didn't have the skills to engage with that level of intimacy. I discovered that I'd never really let anyone in before, nor had I taken the time to know someone so deeply that my love for them became unshakeable.
It was a journey to get there. This kind of love had never been modeled for me before—all I had was a reciprocated willingness to dive deep into a loving relationship. I was scared of letting down my defenses, of giving up my sovereignty, of being seen. Chris had done more work in this realm than I had. He understood effective communication (something I'd been striving to improve upon for fifteen years), he had studied tantra and had a vision of what depth in partnership could look like. While he was able to provide a guiding hand, it was our mutual exploration of creating safety and trust together that allowed our love to blossom into the magical force it is today.
As for those fears I had?
It turns out that letting down my defenses allowed so much more of my vital energy to flow through me, I’ve learned that autonomy and togetherness can happen in unison as I’ve been able to keep my individuality while being deeply unified with another, and being fully seen and being loved anyways has been instrumental in me developing more self love than I thought possible.
Now I have a deep desire to help other women and couples experience this same magic. At Eros and Soul, I focus on creating transformative experiences that help couples deepen their intimate connection. While my story exhibits the journey from people-pleasing and disconnection to genuine pleasure and authentic choice, there are a multitude of different ways that people are feeling trapped in relationship patterns that they don’t even realize are there. We help you uncover and shift those patterns. This isn't about making incremental improvements to your current relationship or making it more tolerable— this is about beginning again with a completely new outlook and creating a new foundation. Chris and I cultivated a love that continues to grow more passionate and fulfilling over time, grounded in complete authenticity and vulnerability with one another. We've learned to maintain both individual sovereignty and deep unity, creating a foundation of safety that allows for full expression and growth. Our relationship demonstrates that it's possible to maintain that honeymoon-phase energy indefinitely when you have the right tools and understanding.
We believe every couple deserves to experience the kind of connection that only gets better with time.
Join us.
If we can honeymoon forever, you can too.
